sighs. i'd rather stay at ophir and not come back. when i come back, all i feel is pain. i hate this. no one's doing anything, but i jus feel it. i cant tell anyone. why must this happen to me? why must she be so desperate and shallow minded? i'd rather stay at ophir and occupy myself with climbing and aiming to reach the top, than to come back. i want to end this. i want to die. its hurting so much. why are you like this? why must you constantly do this to me. sighs. i should not bother so much anymore.

talking about another person now. thank you. thankyou for being my motivation. to continue climbing even though i wanted to give up, and to reach the top. without you and your encouragement, i most probably would not be able to make it. you rock. seriously. i just want to thank you. btw i fell. 6 times. but i did not roll down and die. and i did not suffocate. thanks for the sweet msgs. it helped. iloveyou and takecare.

you rock my life over and over again.
you turned my life from a pile of shit, into a chocolate ice-cream.
without you, i dunno what i would do.
my motivation to carry on and persevere.

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